WITNESS
can someone hiding from sunlight
get tired of a morning star
does the abyss become deeper
when you touch its ground
what is the value of a love
when any hate seems stronger
when noone is listening
no silence can be broken

do I dare to dream without fear
did I ever breathe and not need more
can I accept being guilty
although I am innocent
am I the light when there is darkness
or is it me who shatters love and hope
where am I
there is no peace or calm
would I rest if there were

no – for my ruin has been laid within me
and black is its disguise
wandering on plains of ice so thin
under which the witness lies
even if the world would stop turning
I could not forget this poisoned river

it is within me now this water
flowing gently
slowly burning
created in awe and bred from chaos
noone is safe here from drowning
I was a witness to the death of light
I should not have seen
still it is there telling me things
I do not want to know

there is no light down here
no more here
I want to be

BEGGAR
it is the beggar who doubts the word
its meaning, the gap in between
given another bullet from principle
ignoring errors immense
it is the beggar who questions the world
and so am I now

then climbing up a tower
and falling down the stairs
to lie at its feet again
now clutching at straws
need strength do persevere
I've been served a beggar's feast
let the starving begin

I've lost the fear of begging for more
I fed from colours of day
creating flesh from the seeds of life
wealth in poverty and loss
it is the spirit of hunger and thirst
salvation from greed

do I dare to look into the eyes of the sun
which are glancing at me
shuddering in limbo
shrink when they are present
I've been served a beggar's feast
let the starving begin

I lost nothing at all

NUCLEUS TORN
that which once was born and grown
only out of divine nothingness
radiating hopelessly
from some nuclei torn apart
lying there scattered and broken
is becoming faster by fortune
reflecting our existence
and yearning for the light

everything found in nothing
equal in ignoring it all
no thoughts of regret
still things keep their shape
why have I been driven into
this confusion now complete

dogmatic are our reasons
how naive one can be
theory created wisdom
reveals itself in error

went and found the sun
so cold was her bright surface
what a plague of colossal order
shapes the vague and distant place
staying silent in secrecy
above the many lost and furious
losing sight of humankind
glad to be awaited now

visions of foreign borders
shores unknown to chaotic laws
Eden loves its colours
where everything seems to make more sense

so pride found another victims delight
whose bread it then soon became for all time
brought mere lust instead of laughter and joy
set out for the final hunt to begin
for all I want is thine
for I am reaching the top
high, a summit of dreams
imaginary stories are told
through sound it seems

madness greets as I am digging deeper
aware of judgement on its way
and punishment coming from thirst
aware of judgement on its way

there is no sense in living without a need
mankind pretending to progress constantly
uncertainty arising from ignorance
deceiving the blind with ornamentic art
tearing skin off from others
whilst bleeding from wounds unseen

and now we are here
proud of what we have have created
emerging quickly from poisoned seeds
and rules once founded on greed
innocence did not go lost
it was taken from me
stolen by night's grace

LEADLESS
rejoice in one another
allow me to adore
liberty knew to dream
shall not we taste of how a name is taken
no death in hibernation
the sleeping now unleashed
salt poured on your tongue
cursed be your tempting eye

Euphoria of having fate at our own will
staking claim to all that we desire
we perform the age of armed machine
obsessed as leadless we are

we cry out
til we swallow our own lies
we laugh at
our grim faces of fools
how splendid
ridden by rude force
crushing stars we
limp on common helpless feet
privileged majority
heresy
dominate ones own soul
at our feet
one breath loose let
one breath’s life less
one breath of summer
one death you bled

euphoria of having fate at our own will
staking claim to all that we desire
we perform the age of armed machine
obsessed as leadless we are

euphoria of having fate at our own will
staking claim to all that we desire
we perform the age of our own defeat
obsessed as soulless we are

LURKING
there's salt on my tongue
bleeding sap
no senses asleep
they grow yet deeper into the earth
and I could be back
released
exiled in a world without my breathing
blind and lost

in the arms of my tree
a leaf died for this morning
another for this spring
all those leaves turn golden
for the sun within me
I become but a leaf on your side

tempted, brooding
I could still glide down into the night
to lurk in the dark
and roam in the void
and deny my hunger

in the arms of my tree
a leaf died for this morning
another for this spring
all those leaves turn golden
for the sun within me
right beneath your crown
with my face ever further in the light

and curious I remain
I am
and reason cannot reach me
and fear cannot keep me from going on

(FS 1999-2010)